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Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Midnight Musings Of An Insomniac
Between the snoring of my husband and the 3 a.m. philosophical questions of a 6 year old, I'm having a hard time sleeping tonight. Just returned this afternoon from a long weekend of gigs in Nebraska and Kansas. Had lots of fun, met lots of new interesting people, but I was homesick the whole time for my girls. Usually, I'm pretty good at compartmentalizing my life...when I'm on the road, I'm on the road, when I'm home, I'm home. But this trip, my heart was home the whole time. My ex is getting married. I'm actually really happy for him. I genuinely like his fiancee and love how sweet she is with the girls. They're moving into a HUGE new house and are busy buying furniture. This afternoon they took both girls furniture shopping for their new bedrooms. Caroline came back all excited by her new bunkbeds, desk and dresser. I had a moment of panic. Wondering how much all these "things" are going to mean to my kids, especially since I can't afford to get them for them. How much are they going value material wealth versus the kind of rich life I feel like Tom and I are exposing them to? My girls are so lucky. They get to meet the most interesting, spiritual, loving people in our world, and I'm so grateful for the opportunity to share an alternative life with them. Maybe between their dad and me, they'll end up with a balanced view of the world. That is definitely my prayer for them. My prayer for me at the moment is to get back to sleep. Where'd I put those earplugs?? posted by Cary Cooper @ 3:19 AM 0 Comments: |
